doing nothing for whole day

i skipped school today
cause school is having don't what 1m'sia activity
playing those don't what games
haiz
wasting my time for nonsense
so i ponteng

but sadly
i stay at home whole day
can't sit still
walking here and there
my heart just can't steady
i can't forgot this word
HATE
that i saw on somewhere and is talking about me

oh god
i don't know that there is someone who HATE me so much
i don't wish to know why and when that people started to HATE me
don't want to know what should i do to make that people don't HATE me
i only wish i can forget this
forget that people
forget all the good and bad memories with that people

i want my patient back
i want my concentration back
i want the things just stop happening
don't disturb me from studying
please
i beg for it
please