emo.. im so emo now.. im emo ing..

sometimes i didn't mean what i have say out
just my dictionary is so limited and i can't find another word to express what i feel
people keep misread misunderstand what i say
and i feel tired to explain
if you think that is what want to say and it hurts you
i'm sorry
and if you don't want to forgive me or whatever
that's fine with me
sometimes i really do feel that is annoying
i don't know you can be so 'eight' until you want to know who i sms with chat with
hey
i got my own privacy right
i have my right not to tell you right
okay
i'm emo ing now
not only because of you
small little things can make me emo too
and i don't know why am i like that
am i passing through menopause
i think that is too early for me
but then if not
so what is the reason
i just keep on splitting out my unhappiness
i keep it inside my heart and mind
make me feel so dxxn suffer
ya
today i had cry just because i can't handle my emotion anymore
i feel upset with people around me
okay
no hard feeling
i'm just suddenly found that i'm all alone
i don't know who can i call or chat with when i need someone there
i just don't know who
i keep thinking
then there is a few people in my mind
i think maybe i can find her but she is working now
next maybe she will free to listen to me but she didn't pick up the phone
next maybe he is the best choice but he told me that he is in class now
okay
my mind is totally blank

xxxxx

i feel like shouting out
hey
anybody there

and finally he come to me
i am surprise that he sms me
it does cheer me up
he came on time
and i dxxn happy
i really do
although our topic is just simple and normal
but that's a lot for me
KP thanks a lot