im weak. i know it

is 3something midnight now
i feel like crying so so so much
too stress? maybe but why
i should be too tired and already fall sleep on bed
but im not
im still online + ing for nothing
loitering at other websites for nothing
i dont know who can i call to release all my feelings
I DONT KNOW
is too late now
i dont want to disturb people from their sleep
i use to solve my problems by my own
i always do
so out there, i think hardly can find someone know me well
i guarantee i cant find any
why? why i want to keep?
I DONT KNOW
i really dont know why i wanted to do so
if someone know, can you tell me?
im curious too
psycho problem? maybe
i need counselor
i need psychologist
anyone can help me without any charges?
your generous help is appreciated
i need a strong faith on my own too
a faith that wont break easily no matter what happen
very seriously i need it
i must find my own FAITH